“and then my soul saw you and said oh there you are, I’ve been looking for you…..”
To the next guy who loves me,
Whoever you may be and where ever you are just know I am so excited to meet you after so much heart break in my life you are gonna be a breath of fresh air for me, and I hope I am a breath of fresh air for you too… there’s just a couple things you need to know. If you choose to love me, I am going to love you back hard, I am going to love you strongly, I am going to fight for us, I will love you and only you, I know how to love the right way and when I do love you I am going to change your life for the better, as long as you feel the same way. I will love you hard, I promise even the worst heart break will never be able to change that.
I will forever test you, I am going to see if you’re worthy of the love I can give. I’ve loved a lot of people who didn’t reciprocate it back and ended up hurt. Loving the right way requires loving equally. There will be hard times where we can’t stand each other and there will always be some pain, pain is okay… getting hurt means I am fighting for the exact thing I want and I am willing to work for a relationship we both deserve.
I am very guarded, my trust is earned not given. I know “you’re not like every guy,” but my past has proven that not everyone deserves to be trusted and not everyone can love you the way you deserve. So many people before you have walked away, and left me hurt and alone, that’s okay. I know I shouldn’t be judging you based on the people of my past, but I loved and trusted too easy and I have truly learned.
I am not afraid of getting hurt, I will give you all of me the good, the bad and the ugly. Love is a lot like gambling, but I promise you if you play your cards right I’ll play the right game and I’ll never play you. I’ll never play with your emotions or never take not take your feelings into consideration, I promise to never intentionally hurt you. Most people will say in a world full of people who can’t tell the truth or tell people where they stand with them, I’ll always tell you the honest truth even if its not what you want to hear and you will always know where you stand with me.
I want you, I want us, I want to make this work. I want us to have a relationship they write love songs about, movies about, and you wish for your whole life. I had it once, so I know what it takes to get there. It’s a little bit of faith, vulnerability, and risk. It’s a lot of letting your guard down and trusting someone with your heart. It’s letting the person you love know about the past that hurt you. I’ll tell you about all my scars, even the ones that are hard to talk about. I’ll tell you about the things that went wrong, and once I trust you enough to tell you all about my past it’ll make you love me even more but just know if I am telling you about all these things “I love you, too.”
I ask a few things of you, have patience with me, trust me first and then I’ll find it in me to trust you too. Love me and I promise I’ll love you harder. Love me the right way, and I’ll show you how easy it is to love deeply. I am the girl who will love you in ways you never knew possible, and when I do your life will be forever changed but so will mine.
“I want to be the girl who makes your bad days better, and the one that makes you say my life has changed since I met her.”